Monday, May 29, 2006

f**k upped Monaco.

Q ualifying: Saturday - May 27, 2006

i denied an invitation to go laag with my friends just to watch the MONACO GRAND PRIX, oh no. not the "real live telecast". i watched through f1's official live timing at their official website, it was half a bummer because all i can ever see is their sector times and their lap times, plus a bit of commentary. but i did not see the real thing! like i said before, that our cable subscriber is a real sucker. i was watching quite dramatically because i would scream or whine when kimi's name would be on pole or at end. but since the start of the season i still haven't watched a single race (wether replay or not), i really dont know what happens in the qualifying, basta i just read that all the cars would go out, and blah, blah. kaya, i could not imagine properly what the new qualifying rules looks like. continuing with what happened to the qualifying, at the start of the session. everything was perfect, kimi was in the pole sitter for the first two 15-minute session. but all was lost in the early dying stages of the last 20-minute session, i really dont know what happened to kimi because in after he pit stopped for fresh tyres, be began his flying lap. but as i saw on the times board, he wasn't as quick as his first two times. and when the commentator said that "Raikkonen could only managed fourth" (walang O.A.) tears began to create in my eyes! i was very2 down at that moment. hehe. i mean because he GOT it na, but lost it all at the end. and ofcourse MONACO is a very special place for him, and ME! i love monaco! kaya it was very sad for me that kimi's not the one dominating in my favorite place. kaya na-iyak talaga ako. no kidding. oh yeah, schumi dominated alongside alonso and then webber. which resulted: for me to say nasty words and a very gloomy mood throughout the night. which practically disturbed my saturday night.

Race Day: Sunday - May 28, 2006

nah. i didn't watch the live telecast or even the live timing. because i was at Home. cooking for my baby cousin's birthday party. i found out about the results just this morning. kaya last night i was sweating around 8 o'clock, because na-excite ako sa race. i mean, what would you feel. kung yung pinaka-aabangan mo na race in the year, would just start without you watching, right? emphatize with me!. its just so sad for me to sit around the house while the MONACO GP gets underway. and isa pa, of all the people, why me pa and hindi makakapag-panood? my friend giselle was able to watch the qualifying LIVE! but me? who loves and dies for this sport, hindi? is it fate or punishment? or maybe the saying "masarap ang bawal" is true. now, to the race proper. was also a sucker! honestly i dont know what happened, pero when i was downloading the pictures and when i was reading the results & analysis. hell of a bummer talaga! because kimi was putting up a real good fight with the race leader fernando. he could have won the race said ron dennis (mclaren-mercedes team principal) , because he had 7 laps more fuel than fernando, the deployment of the safety car after webber's retirement, was all a blur for kimi, because his exhaust temperature rose significantly high and it failed to cool sufficiently which caused kimi's car to oerheat and then fire up. which obviously caused his early retirement, with just 28 laps more to go. formula one is all suprising and everything cxan happen at a blink of an eye. but knowing that you have an 80% or more probability of winning a race. DISAPPOINMENT is clearly evident and the very in-excusable feeling. its just so sayang! he could really have won that race. pero what can they do, if that's really what happend. the result is the result. theirs nobody to blame, well that's f1. see what happened. =(



also according to f1's official website about "Monaco's Technical Requirements" review, "Monaco is unique among Formula One race venues. The Monte Carlo event is often talked about as the race of the year, and the tight, twisting street circuit needs a very special approach to get the best from a car." which is why i love it! because of itd challenge and uniqueness. kimi's overheated problem was also explained because "The absence of significant straights makes cooling the engine difficult, especially as the short gear ratios mean the engine is often running at high revs even though the car is moving relatively slowly through the air. This presents a challenge for cooling the car effectively, and we sometimes have to open up the bodywork to ensure the engine does not overheat. However, with aerodynamic efficiency less of a priority here than elsewhere, this does bring its usual lap-time penalty, should it be required.", because when the safety car went out, the cars were forced to slow down, which is the reason why the exhaust temp increased. like a typical car, when you drive it for miles and miles then you suddenly stop it overheats. same as with a formula one car but more powerful. because overheating happend in just a short period of time (if your cooling systems, engine etc are not as reliable). nobody can blame them.

argh! enough about that. i wanna forget about it! kimi will do it.. soon.. =( . darn. I LOVE FORMULA ONE!

au revoir & ta-ta.

inked by alex at 6:59 PM

Saturday, May 27, 2006

my life. my hate. my love: on board kimi raikkonen.

monaco gp 2006: friday practice session with kimi raikkonen







spanish gp 2006: starting grid with kimi raikkonen


training at home with kimi raikkonen: zurich, switzerland

inked by alex at 7:03 PM

Friday, May 26, 2006

bon voyage to HK.

hay. nothing can ever compete with a vacation to HK! its one of the shopping capitals in the world. haha. awesome. =)

nah. dont worry, im not going arjay is. ganda pa ng farewell laag namin kanina., coz we got to eat a whole bucket meal sa jollibee. yam2x! plus a whole swirly bits. haha! all courtesy of mr raymond cervantes. oh yeah, we saw our video from last week's laag and you know what we saw?! A WHITE LADY PEEKING ON US FROM THE OUTSIDE, or was it? basta it was a freaking hell of a video for us. whew. (ill just post them pagbalik ni pareng manok from HK!). so moving on. and after we bid our farewells to manok and we hanged out at roilyn's place and nanood lang kami ng jackass the movie and nag-sing along kami. haha, its just one of the ordinary days pero, i missed them lang. teehee.

epal lang. gusto ko lang kasi i-kwento eh. i mean, i know this means nothing to you guys. but it means a lot for me. =) i miss the mga pangits kasi eh. kaso nga lang, we were not complete kanina. and baka until next week pa lang kami magiging complete. and that just sucks.

im bein so dramatic because they all go to school at the same city and they could just hang out any time they want. but me? shush! i study from a far far away island with nothing but STUDY, STUDY & STUDY. no mga pangits to comfort me, no mga pangits to give me advice, and no mga pangits tto cheer me up when im down. basta NO PANGITS in cebu!!. well its not like im all alone in my cranky little room, ofcourse i have friends their who i can trust doon.but my family there is different from my pangits here. i mean, when im with my guys there, (not guys as in boys) the "fun" we have is just different. we might go movie marathon for a whole day but after that, yun lang. we may eat a lot but after, tapos na ang araw namin. but with these guys. the day is full of suprises like one incident...

"we were celebrating khem's birthday sa hill top (a far away place from downtown), we had fun because we ate and we ate. so after our dinner, we traveled back to civilization and we decide to eat our desserts at roilyn's place. so when we went there his now ex-boyfriend was waiting for her there, because of "his" pagka-seloso. he was so angry at roilyn that time and went off. so w,e naturally continued with our bidding (eating mango float) inside her house. after a few minutes, his bf came back. but he didnt called for roilyn or whatever, he just stayed outside. so we thought that he was just looking for roilyn and was to shy to come inside because we were there. so we left them to there business and they talked outside. so after eating, we went home na. so one by one, raymond dropped us home in our respective houses. first off was joel and daryl. and i was next. when we were running along the highway, we were shocked because our LEFT REAR TIRE was flat upped. we were so suprised kasi we didnt go "off roading naman" and the road we passed through was all smooth and stuff. at first we were just shocked. but when the guys (raymond, khem, 2pe) went all outside to check up the tire. what they saw double shocked them because the tire was inserted by 5 inch nail! i said CONSPIRACY!. to make it all worse. we were strated just outside the city and there were a lot of drunk people in the area plus the area was notable for its "tambay boys". kaya we were so afraid. there were only 6 of us there and i was wearing a mini-skirt. while contacting our friends na naka-uwi na, some guys asked 2pe if we needed help. sabi naman nya ok lang raw, and then one of the guys peeked through the wind shield kung saan kami safetly na naka-upo. then those ugly brutes called up more of their drinking friends. kaya i panicked and i was just so afraid, i was on the verge of wetting my skirt na). as in kami 3 started to call up more of our friends to come and rescue us. (we didnt dare to call our parents kasi they will surely kill us) plus i forgot that was TEN THIRTY IN THE EVENING ON A SATURDAY NIGHT. kaya naturally maraming lasing nun na time. so when more of those brutes were being called up, LUCKILY, joel showed up with bunch of his dad's "boys" to help us replace the tire. ha! i almosed kissed joel for saving us. teeeheee. so ayun. hinatid kami ni 2pe with his ate and joel sa bahay nila, and left the boys to do the dirty work. wawa naman. basta, my dad nearly killed me kasi we went home around QUARTER TO TWELVE. pero i explained to him kung ano talaga nagyari, and he actually understood me (60%) nga lang. hehe. i cant blame him naman. and oh yeah for the CULPRIT? who else the loving now ex-bf of roilyn. haha. now half of us loathed him until we graduated for giving us that flat tire trouble!.

wala lang. i just felt like talking about that incident now kasi, the CULPRIT? na-accident last week. and he's really badly injured. yun cgro karma nya for putting us on lot of trouble back then. but still i hope he goes well din, kahit i loath him a little bit. hehe.

*TIP: tip ko lang sa inyo. treasure every moment with your barkada! kasi it might be the last. or maybe matagal nanaman kayo magkikita. and "missing someone, is the saddest feeling you'll ever feel". THE END. hehe.

see yah, mamaya kapag nag-QUAlifying na ang F1 SA MONACO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ta-ta!

inked by alex at 7:09 PM

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

favorite movie lines.

Meet Joe Black

William Parrish: Love is passion. Obsession. Someone you can't live without. Someone you fall head over heels for. Find someone you can love like crazy, and will love you the same way back. Listen to your heart. No sense in life without this. To make the journey without falling deeply in love, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try, because if you haven't tried, then you haven't lived.

Susan Parrish: Tell me you love me now.
Joe Black: I love you now. I love you always.

William Parrish: It's hard to let go isn't it?
Joe Black: Yes it is, Bill.
William Parrish: Well, that's life.

William Parrish: Do you know about money?
Joe Black: It can't buy happiness?


10 Things I Hate About You

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair;
I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick;
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie,
I hate it when you make me laugh;
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around,
And the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you;
Not even close,
not even a little bit,
not even at all.

City of Angels

Seth: I'd rather have one breath of her hair, one kiss of her mouth, one touch of her hand than an eternity without it. One.

Nothing Hill

Anna: The fame thing isn't really real. Don't forget, I'm also just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love me

Anna: Can I stay a bit longer?
William: Stay forever.

inked by alex at 1:58 AM

Monday, May 22, 2006

loving the beach side of the O.C.




last week comment pa ito.. hmm. the last week's episode of the o.c. (in star world) was a sucker. hehe. the episode was about valentines day. sandy and kirsten had a little bit of fight, ah, it was all about valentines day celebration. haha.

**like all men! "they dont really appreciate valentines day!". i mean valentines day suppose to be all sweet and stuff and i understand that most guys really dont like all those stuff (and even me doesnt really easily get head-over-heels with all the sweet stuffs), but why (most of them) really dont give a damn! its the sweetest day of the year (excempt for your monthsary/anniversay), i mean its just for one day to be all sweet and cuddly. and it wont kill!!! for you doing sweet stuffs for your "girl" for just a day aint it?

well moving on,. something happened between summer and seth! woah. haha. they were all cute about the reaction of what they did. hehe. seth's really cutie., and they also did another "shot" which was all hilarious. i love the pair. but things between marissa and ryan were not quite good, because of the events that had happended, about marissa not trusting ryan about that guy (I FORGOT HIS NAME!). now marissa is trying to get ryan back. but ryan on the other hand refuses to get back with marissa (not its the other way around!). plus between the pair, there is an extra involvement of ryan ex-gf, theresa!

**errr.. and i just found out recently (whilesurfing2x around the net) SPOILER! that theresa and ryan had a baby!..

and marissa was just so devastated when she saw ryan and theresa together. ha! who wouldn't? i mean thats your ex-boyfriend.! and you just broke up with him BUT if you were the one who broke up with him because he didnt trust your friend.. ill give her sh!t.

**now. most girls now adays dont trust their man anymore. i mean, maybe beacuse MEN are just sooo, "i-dont-want-to-say-it" na. when you see your guy with another girl you cant feel secure right?, they maybe just friends, and explain there's nothing "really" between them. bu are you 110% sure?because sometimes guys just do that on purpose! they intend to show of their pretty ladies to us so that we'll feel insecure about them. and somehow we can be like their perfect little girl-friends and it sucks!...

enough about girl talk. back to the O.C. im pretty excited about the next episode this tuesday @ 9 pm because things heat up between marissa, ryan and theresa!

gotta go. coz fiesta d2! may kainan sa tita's place ko.. im hungry na.

ciao! au revoir! vamos!

inked by alex at 2:20 PM

fiesta. fete. festa. festmahl.

ihappy fiesta! Glückliches Festmahl! banquete feliz! fête heureuse! i love the foods! ranges from lechon to salad to mechado to kilawin to sinugba to every single dish known to philippine culture... everybody in the city is united under 1 goal to visit as many house there is and to eat as many as their stomach may dig in. the atmoshpere is just great. laughing and dancing and chatting and having ultimate fun. its like one party in a city. not to mentionthe oh so fun gig of orange and lemons. everythings perfect except for one thing. my barkada is not here! ewan ko ba nga kung bat ganito buhay. when my parents are here they wanna go out and about, but im limited. now that theyre not here and i can do whatever i want. theyre not here! ah. no prob ngits!! be back nlng pagkatapos ng exam nyo.ahh. im gettin hungry. il just find someone i can go to and eat with. haha..

happy fiesta!

inked by alex at 11:34 AM

Saturday, May 20, 2006

girl power

ha! i welcome you to my new layout!! i did this for four hours.. and another 30 mins for the background. whew. di naman kasi ako ganun kagaling noh!? im still figuring out this whole html stuff pa. im working on it, working on it.. but ta-da!, my whole new latest creation. i give you my beach/summer look with gisele bundchen firing it up as my banner... haha. whatcha think? nah, nevermind..

now, ive been talking about all "boys". my mouth is flustered with all boys, now im putting the spotlight on the women who i think rocks!!

eva longoria

claim to fame: desperate housewives
- the prettiest of the desperate housewives with vip bf tony parker. i just love her smile. and the way she dresses.

jessica alba

claim to fame: honey, sin city, awake, into the blue
the uber sexy dancer of HONEY. love her killer moves and super sexy abs-full body.

natalie portman

claim to fame: star wars ep. 1-3, v for vendetta, closer
- the charming senator amidala aka mrs. skywalker. the harvard graduate. she's a great actress and a very beautiful girl. loved her!

zhang ziyi

claim to fame: memoirs of geisha, crouching tiger hidden dragon
- the cutie-chinese sexy geisha. i love her because shes asian. a hollywood diamond and shes cute and all that.

gisele bundchen

claim to fame: victoria secret, dior, chanel, armani
- the victoria secret superangel. one word to describe her. supermodel.

connie freydell

claim to fame: in the paddocks. mrs. connie freydell montoya
- the pretty freckled woman of jpm and mom of sebastian. i love her because shes such a good wife and mom. she supports jpm whereever.

jenni dahlman

claim to fame: the paddocks, mrs. jenni maria dahlman-raikkonen
- dead-gorgeous ex ms. finland aka mrs. raikkonen. yeap. my dear kimi's wife. i love her because, shes pretty, sporty (she loves riding) and she loves kimi the way i do.

inked by alex at 2:21 PM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

kimi writes off title hopes.

As the fight between F1’s top teams to secure Kimi Raikkonen's services for 2007 intensifies, the Finn has ruled himself out of contention for this year’s world title – with 12 races still remaining.

Raikkonen has just two podium finishes to his name this year as McLaren has struggled to match the pace of Renault and Ferrari.

He trails championship leader Fernando Alonso by 27 points and, with the current points system putting a premium on consistency, the Finn reckons that is too big a deficit to overcome.

He expects the title chase to be a private contest between Renault’s Alonso and Ferrari’s Michael Schumacher from now on, and has limited his own target to race wins.

“The title battle will be fought between Ferrari and Renault,” Raikkonen was quoted as saying by The Sun.

“They always finish races and fight for victories and podiums.

“Me? I’ll just look for winning some races.”

Raikkonen’s comments add further weight to speculation that he is set to leave McLaren at the end of this year, most likely for Ferrari.

Italian newspaper La Gazzetta dello Sport quotes the Finn as saying: “I’m not interested in money, I just want a winning car.”

Raikkonen is widely rumoured to have signed a pre-contract with Ferrari, which Gazzetta claims would be activated provided the Maranello squad meets certain performance targets by the start of June.

With Ferrari lying second in the constructors' championship having won two races, these are understood to have been comfortably achieved, potentially paving the way for Raikkonen to confirm his switch to Ferrari later this summer.
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thanks to: itv-f1

inked by alex at 5:48 PM

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

my, my apologies.

apologies for myself. you. and everybody else in the internet world!! i miss kimi! i miss f1! i miss friendster! i miss multiply! and i miss my blog! i miss the forums!!

the past week was a blast!. blast na fiery blast. coz it was full of i dont know what. first i have to deal with another internet breakdown, take note: "break and down". kaya for the past 8 days, i was stranded in the dessertful city, with a no good cable subscriber because another f1 race(in spain) passed by. and i wasnt able to see what i love! this time it was doubled coz sabi nga, walang internet! i had to wake up early in the morning just to catch the early morning news in CNN. well, yeah the results where the same as how i felt, it sucked. kimi qualified for 9th, and scythed to 5th and finished fifth. whew, i really cant hide my disappointments, but hopefully he'll win the monaco again! my fave track!.. haha.

oh well, enough about f1. i startin to go ga-ga again. lets talk about my weekend. it was a blast as in cool, awesome!. haha. my friends came home and we had dinner. haha. at last i was able to break freeeeeee. nah, dont worry about me, i can handle the excitement.. ahh. saturday night? we trottled the city and went sidetracks in our "paradise", where we sat and talked.shouted.chased each other. haha. yeah, we were like kids.. im sorry if im a bit emotional coz i really do miss him. as well as my cebu family! haha.

ahh. enough about friends talk. ano nanaman sasabihin ko? ahh. yeah. the thing! haha. it was a big surprise last sunday!! ill spill it all tomorrow. gotta re-group. hahaha. need to bounce.

cge ciao!! au revoir!! ta-ta!!

inked by alex at 5:12 PM

Monday, May 08, 2006

a little grip and a little more push.

last night's european gp was one hell of a wreck. only 13 drivers took the chequered flag, most coz of engine failure. and poor jenson was one of them so much for a bad luck. but no sweat, kimi wasnt one of them. he did finished the race but from the 4th position. though i expected him to be 4th or 5th, its was not his race. he had a bit of trouble with his car. and the car pace was no match against the race leaders, ferrari & renault. as analysis said, it was because. his car was a very heavy, coz of his fuel. that was proven in the closing stages of the race when he was tail and nose with massa's ferrari. he was up to the challenge when the time gap between him and massa was abou .4 seconds when he crossed the finish line. he was the fastest man on the closing stages and he set the secon faster lap after schumacher with just .2 of a second slower. if the race was just a bit longer than 60 laps, then maybe he take on massa and took the last podium position.. if only, the car's girp would have been better then he would have dived in the duel between the two champs and become one of them. ahh. if only. he just need a whole piece of luck and a finest tuned car. he has the talent but not the machine. oh. come on mclaren! prove to them that the finest livery in the track is not just about looks but also about speed and power...

ps: guys honestly, i didnt watched the race. hehe. i just read all of the "happenings" through the live timing's commentary and few updates from the official website and itv-f1.com. see. thats real addict!


a clip showing the overtaking skills of both mclaren drivers. kimi raikkonen overtakes jenson button to take the 4th postion and juan pablo taking control over fisichella. awesome drive from the european grand prix last night. .

they're amazing. love them! __au revoir.

inked by alex at 1:18 PM

Sunday, May 07, 2006

hell breaking the dawn.

good morning. *yawn*. ewan ko ba puro "kasaklapan" nalang ang buhay ko. 1.first = kimi qualified for 5th position only. 2.second = im still awake right now... know why? knock2x. my sisters' still outside with all the friends they have. ofcourse i can sleep yet, because we dont have a proper room to sleep on because, im here at our cafe! we're suppose to sleep on the floor with one mattress only and its inside the cafe proper. see what fate seems to have bestowed upon me. hell with everyone thats here. give me peace! give me rest... oh, you'll all see my wrath when i tell mom about this you freaks! i wanna sleep!! arrghhh.

*ehem*, maintain focus. *yawn*. sorry im just really sleepy and i cant sleep... im just so tired, i have a laundry to do tomorrow. *yawn*. i guess FORMULA ONE is the only thing that makes me happy and healthy right now. okei im done talking here, *yawn*, i really dont care..

gud night! oh, good morning na pala!. O=)


- kape ka nalang muna!! lleetttt meeeee ssssllllleEeeeppppPp!!!

inked by alex at 2:15 AM

Saturday, May 06, 2006

not so fast but furious.

earlier i was on the verge of wetting my pants. (haha! kidding.) but honestly same level of excitment but a different side effect, while watching the europe gp live (not on my tv screen) through live timing lang. because the when f1.com says live, it is live... the qualifying session went through pretty well for the drivers. with good track and weather conditions. but not for kimi raikkonen, i actually didnt know what went wrong coz i just said earlier that i didnt watch from the screen on flesh. ill just read them tomorrow when itv or formula one will post there analysis on the quali.. he was around 1 second slower than fernando. i guess he still has the understeer problem with his car, he was "just" near the pace of the race leaders. but i think ferrari and renault did dominate the qualifying today straight.

i just hope all goes well for kimi and mclare-mercedes tomorrow on race day! oh i forgot here's the stat by the way: QUALIFYING RESULTS: EUROPE GP. sorry i cant post it here, coz i dont know what the hell happened here!. ill just see yah tomorrow with new images from qualifyng. but no matter what you do im still depressed with the result. maybe ill just sleep this over and maybe this is all just a dream.

and oh yeah. pray with me for kimi tomorrow, ayt? haha.. gud night my kingdom!!

inked by alex at 10:37 PM

perfection.

nobody's perfect but i guess everybody wants to be. i know im not. and i dont intend to be. i try not to care what others say. i try to be cool and listen out what they have to say. i may seem to smile around, make your statements for me a mere joke. but i keep those in my head. so that sooner or later i may change what you dont like about me. but i cant take it anymore! i hear them every where, anywhere. everytime i see them, thats the only thing they can say. i know im not perfect and i know i cant be what you want me to be. i dont care alright? but why do have to whisper it to my ears!? or shout it with everybody else!? why do you have to keep on reapeting? i know, i heard. why do you have to slap it into my face?. god. help me please! ive been praying for this for the last year, and all i get is more drama from people around. im so sick, im so sick. theyre in my head now and in my heart. before i tolerated it, but know it hurts, it kills and it insults me. i cant seem to escape. what did i ever do to deserve this? i tried everything, everything even things beyond my reach to change myself. i swallowed my pride to be the beautiful for them. but what can i do? this is all me. god gave me this, and i cant do anything. then please, i beg you. deal with it. stop making a big deal with something better off alone. i know its the best for me, but i had enough. shut up! jeep quiet! and be still! i tried and tried. isnt that enough? please, please deal with my inperfection. because your not!

inked by alex at 9:14 PM

Friday, May 05, 2006

burn again.

haha! because of my recent frustration with our internet subscriber (last night), they continue to punish me! because the internet went off when i arrive. they let me wait for about 2 hours before they connected me back.. shush enough about that.

so talking about last night, i burned my 4th CD of the month. haha!! its entitled OST MANIA. my tracklists are from the movies cinderella story, mean girls, ella enchanted, princess diaries, ice princess & shrek 2.

here's my tracklist:
1. best day of my life - jesse mcartney - cinderella story
2. crash world - hilary duff - cinderella story
3. one in this world - haylie duff - cinderella story
4. may angels lead you in - jimmy eat the world - cinderella story
5. god is a dj - pink - mean girls
6. overdrive - katy rose - mean girls
7. built this way - samantha romson - mean girls
8. darama queen - lindsay lohan - confessions of teenage drama queen
9. because you live - jesse mcartney - princess diaries
10. miracles happen - myra - princess diaries
11. what makes you different - backstreet boys - princess diaries
12. dont fo breaking my heart - jesse mcartney/anne hathaway - ella enchanted
13. somebody to love - anne hathaway - ella enchanted
14. accidentally in love - counting crows - shrek 2
15. you belong to me - jason wade (lifehouse) - shrek 2
16. i need a hero - jennifer saunders - shrek 2
17. no one - aly & aj - ice princess
18. you set me free - michelle branch - ice princess
19. operate - peaches - mean girls

no links yet! sorry. ill try to upload them later pa in my multiply site. but if you want to listen to my "first two" collections, Dream Collection and Final Fantasy Piano Collection. listen to your own satisfaction. haha!

well moving on, im kinda hungry right now. kasi naman po hindi ako kumain eh.. hehe. no! im not on a diet. i just dont feel like eating. haha, to anyone in the world who ever cares, time out! i will eat na ngayon.*

**finished eating! and still im hungry!!! (butas ata tiyan ko eh) and hell is let loose here! its so god d*mn hot! or should i say im so hoy!? haha.

uie MOTHER'S DAY na sa sunday! what ya planning to do? haha. give your moms the best treat you can give, once a year lang naman eh! im still actually thinking what to give to her pa, my moms in manila right now at ako and2 mabubulok nalan sa mindanao, thats why im having trouble what suprise should i give her. all i can do is call her, coz i dont have cash(its summer duh!? no allowance). or maybe we(thats me and my 2 evil sisters) should give her a custom made letter, and we'll send it to her? oh god! this is harder than i thought.....


*thinking mode* - kape ka muna!

inked by alex at 11:08 AM

Thursday, May 04, 2006

sh*t.

pldt pang-asar! know why? because when i clicked the "PUBLISH POST" or internet connect failed! woah!? and now my post is gone!! i wrote that entry for 30 mins and its all gone! shocks.

well it was about my 4th CD that i burned earlier. haha! ill give you my playlist tomorrow coz uwi na kami sa villa. haha.

see yah tomorrow! drop by and tag me din!

au revoir!

inked by alex at 6:45 PM

voila!.

yes! ive actually figured this out. bsta yung tungkol sa template2x ko.. haha. i wont be having any problems na.. thank you2x!

yes? what do i have today? wala lang, oh yeah. i already bought CANDY'S May Edition. cool stuff though. raming mga tips about do's and dont's in a relationship (though i dont need it, dont have one).. pero in fairness it's cute, not to mention full force si YAEL d2! he goes shopping for candy., and i like his picks! very cool and i want to win them! argh!!! it has cool stuffs too. kaso i forgot them na. haha! you just find it for yourself! ayoko lang ng pic pocket na photo nila hndi cute.. hehe, PEACA!


i just took this quiz in candymag.com and its so cool! hehe.. titled ARE YOU A DREAMER? hehehe. and this is what i got..

you’re definitely a world-class dreamer. Your favorite home is a castle in
the air, and while you’re there, only clouds with silver linings would dare
to pass by! You absolutely dote on fantasies and fancies. There are
people who laugh at the dreamers of the world, but the truth is, they’re
usually just too scared to have a dream of their own. Dreams can change
the world! Your dreams can transform you into a painter, a dancer, or an
architect. Just combine them with concrete effort, and there’s no
telling how far you’ll go..


oh really? haha! no need to tell na i guess i really am a 100% dreamer..
sush..



inked by alex at 10:18 AM

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

just some old favorites.


the other day. i was updating my fanlistings. but then i stumbled across a few old favorites. i read through yuna&tidus and rinoa&squall's love story, which i've read already for the 5th time na i guess. hehe. their story is actually one of my favorite love stories but i dont know if you already played the game or you know the story or if you even know them. haha. but im an avid fan, kaya i want to spread the love. though i dont expect you to be touched the same as they touched me, teehee.. and oh yeah these articles are not mine kaya dont, ill link their respective owners' sites at the end of the articles. im just an honest surfer.

ATTENTION: CONTAINS SPOILERS! so if you want to play the game right dont read this entry! capiche? enjoy.



1. yuna & tidus



(this is from yuna's point of view.) Tidus used to live in Zanarkand 1000 years ago, but was transported to Yuna's time by Sin. Disoriented and confused, Tidus doesn't understand the world around him and needs to enlist the help of Yuna and her guardians. He travels throughout Spira with them, discovering along the way that his father (Jecht) was also brought into this world a few years ago. His biggest shock though, is that his father has now become Sin itself. Along the journey, Tidus grows very fond of Yuna and vows to protect her all the way to Zanarkand, where she must obtain the final Aeon and defeat Sin. It is in Zanarkand that Tidus discovers he is merely a dream of the Fayth, and he will fade after Sin is defeated for good. Yuna's love for Tidus is present in both FFX and FFX-2, however she doesn't get to interact with him much in FFX-2...

Final Fantasy X

Yuna's feelings for Tidus are quite clear throughout the game. She always opens her heart up to him and stays behind to talk to him when all the others have moved on. She is the first to believe him about Zanarkand, and even defends him about it to the Luca Goers (a blitzball team).

Tidus: "What are you all talking about?"
Bickson: "Who are you supposed to be?"
Graav: "Ah, I remember him. Guy from Kilika."
Bickson: "Hmm?"
Graav: "You know, one of the Besaid Aurochs. Said somethin' about winning the cup."
Bickson: "Oh, right. You're that idiot."
Yuna: "Don't call him that!"
Bickson: "But he is an idiot. They don't got what it takes to win the cup."
Tidus: "Well, they do now that I'm here!"
Yuna: "Yes, they will win! He used to be the star player of the Zanarkand Abes!"
Graav: "Yeah, as if anyone lived in those ruins."
Yuna: "It's not ruins, there's a big city there! There is!"

In Luca, Tidus teaches Yuna to whistle and tells her he will always come running when he hears it. One of the scenes that shows their closeness is as they are about to leave Luca. Yuna can see that Tidus is upset, but she doesn't know why. She tries to cheer him up and they share a cute little laughing session, causing the other guardians to question their sanity.
After learning about what Yuna must do as a summoner, Tidus decides he will do anything to save her.
Tidus: "I didn't know anything about what a summoner is supposed to do. And I told her all those things without even thinking. I've got to tell her. I've got to tell her I'm sorry!"
Cid: "That's it? You're gonna tell her you're sorry? And then you just drag her to Zanarkand and make her fight Sin, huh? You're all the same - let the summoner die so we can live in peace!" Cid throws Tidus to the ground.
Tidus: "No! I'm not gonna let Yuna die!"
Cid: "Hah! Words! Show me action!"
Tidus: (shouting) "I'm telling you, she won't die!"

Yuna's engagement to Seymour upsets Tidus, since he believes Yuna should marry for love. Their feelings for each other aren't confirmed until AFTER Tidus saves Yuna from Seymour and the betrayal of Yevon, fleeing to Macalania Woods. In the lake, Tidus suggests to Yuna that she quit her pilgrimage so he can take her to the Zanarkand he is from. Yuna considers this, but knows she can't abandon Spira like that. She breaks down and cries, being comforted when Tidus takes her into his arms and kisses her.
Yuna continues her pilgrimage with Tidus and her guardians by her side. When they finally reach Zanarkand and defeat Sin, she discovers that Tidus was only a dream of the Fayth...a dream that must fade. Desperately trying to stop this from happening, Yuna runs into Tidus' arms, only to find that she goes right through him. As he is fading, Tidus hugs Yuna from behind, knowing he can't be with the woman he loves.
It is now that Yuna, eyes filled with tears, tells Tidus how she feels. "I love you." Days later, Yuna tries whistling for Tidus. He doesn't come. She must try to live her life without him, but never forget him.

Yuna: "Just, one more thing... The people and the friends that we have lost, or the dreams that have faded...Never forget them."

Final Fantasy X-2

Tidus' part in FFX-2 is a lot smaller, since he is no longer by Yuna's side. However, Yuna's reason for becoming a sphere hunter revolve primarily around Tidus after she sees a sphere containing someone that looks a lot like him (Shuyin). Throughout the game, Yuna visits the farplane by jumping/falling into the gaping holes where the Fayth used to be. If you hear Tidus' whistle a certain amount of times each time you visit the farplane (see the endings page for more details), the Fayth will do what they can to revive him. Getting the perfect ending means Yuna and Tidus are reunited in Besaid at the end of the game, still as much in love as ever.

Tidus: "I got a theory. I think the fayth gathered up my thoughts and put 'em together to bring me back. Maybe. Something like that."
Tidus: "Or maybe...I'm still a dream."
Yuna: "Wait! So you'll disappear?"
Tidus: "Cherish me, Yuna. And I'll cherish you. All right? We gotta stay together. That's what we have to do."
Yuna: "Is that what the fayth told you?"
Tidus: "Nah. But I like it."

a fan made yuna & tidus music videO...

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thanks to: hibiscus: a yuna shrine (its great!) and youtube



2. rinoa & squall



(this one's from squalls point of view) Squall and Rinoa: a love story that transcends boundary after boundary. They seem to hit it off almost instantly. From the opening, you know they'll be together. Rinoa first appears at the SeeD inauguration party, and notices Squall standing alone in a corner. Walking up to him and telling him he's "the best looking guy" in the party, she rather abruptly pulls him out to the dance floor. After they share an absolutely perfect (sarcasm) dance, she mysteriously disappears.

Squall sees Rinoa again in Timber. Rinoa is just overjoyed that he's a SeeD and has formally met him. After suddenly hugging him, she reaches out to receive a handshake, and gets one. That's pretty much the first handshake that Squall has ever given in his life. Foreshadowing, I tell you!
Throughout the first half of the game, one can tell that Squall tends to be slightly kinder to Rinoa than to the other characters in the game and is completely oblivious to it for awhile.

Realistically, though, their path wasn't smooth the whole way. During the broadcast at Timber, Rinoa begins verbally attacking Squall's way of life as a SeeD - "Oh, what an easy life it must be, just to follow orders . . . ." Squall lashes back with some pretty cogent arguments right back against the Forest Owls, sending Rinoa running away in a fit. Though they have similar experiences over the course of the game, the growing passion between them is simply inevitable.

Regrettably and rather ironically, Squall doesn't realize his feelings for Rinoa until it's too late. After Edea is beaten for a second time, Rinoa goes into a trance, revives Seifer through a kiss, and faints indefinitely.
As Squall stares helplessly at her on the infirmary bed and then questions Edea for help, he begins to collect his feelings: "First time we met was the day I became a SeeD. We met again... in Timber... We had a lot of arguments at first. But in time, things began to change. You were looking at me... you smiled when our eyes met. It made me feel calm, tranquil. Rinoa... give me another chance."

He begins to worry. Squall can't stand being paralyzed and helpless, scheduled to suffer through the same torture of his past. So he decides to take matters into his own hands. Gently he holds Rinoa on his back and escapes Garden, in a mission to find Esthar City, the mysterious city where Ellone apparently is. His logic? If he gets Ellone to send him into the past, he can find out what caused Rinoa's trance, and possibly save her.

He walks alone down the long railway path of FH, with a sleeping Rinoa on his back. The whole way he silently doubts himself, what he's doing, his farfetched reasoning, and most of all, how he's changed... he becomes so internally confused that he even speaks fragments out loud to Rinoa, his only source of comfort in the world, somehow expecting an answer but never receiving one.

Ultimately, his persistent, anxious concern is not only what shatters his walls, but also what causes him to lose some of himself. He begins to stop thinking. He begins to shut all possible risks of danger or regret out of his mind. The people around him question, scold, and even ridicule him. Squall has simply stopped caring. The only thing he can think about is preventing the imminent heartbreak that was once his childhood.

... Or maybe he's finding himself? His situation eventually gets to a point where everything is all but completely hopeless. Rinoa is floating alone, in space, with a life support system that had just terminated, and with no oxygen or life source. Without even hesitating, Squall takes a path that could mean self sacrifice. With the tiny, almost obscure spark of hope it gives him, he leaps right out into space with about two minutes of life support left.

Before he takes off, people call him an idiot and a fool. However, Irvine calls him a hero. The definition of a hero doesn't necessarily have to be a person who thinks of nothing but protecting the "fate of mankind". A hero is characterized by courage, nobility, self risk and sacrifice, and most of all, hope. Rinoa had given him the gift of hope all along. All he had to do was realize it, and act on it.

That is, how exactly do they attract each other so well? Though he doesn't usually say it, it's pretty evident that Rinoa's open, warm-hearted and at times ingenuous personality captivates Squall. Never in his life has he known a person sincere enough to glomp another at first sight. Squall loves her honesty, her candor, her true patience for him. Later in the game, Squall finds himself confiding in her, just letting out his deepest secrets and fears. To him, doing just that is a different and ground-breaking experience, and he's extremely vulnerable and unsure with himself. In disc three, as lucent white sunlight shines through dark clouds, Rinoa tells him from the bottom of her heart that she's terrified. No, Squall is not a prince. No, Squall is not one helluva suave guy. But for once, he knows what path he wants to take... he knows what he truly feels. "I'll... I'll be your knight. Rinoa... just stay close to me."
For Rinoa, on the other hand, two of Squall's most prevalent characteristics appeal to her. One, his closed-up world. Rinoa sincerely wants to be a part of it, make an impact on his life... get to know what constantly goes through his tortured mind. Second, his intrepid fearlessness. She firmly believes that no one can get on by himself or herself, and dreams that she, for once, won't be fighting this war alone. All she really wants is somebody to protect her and help guide her through difficult experiences. Rinoa truthfully admires Squall's lion-hearted appearance and his will to battle perpetually.
Squall reminisces at Edea's house

Squall (First time we met was the day I became a SeeD. We met again...in Timber...)
(We had a lot of arguments at first. But in time, things began to change.)
(You were looking at me...You smiled when our eyes met.)
(It made me feel calm, tranquil.)
(Rinoa...Give me another chance.)

Squall talks to comatose Rinoa
Squall (Rinoa...You feel so cold.)
(Are you going to be like this forever?)
"......" "Isn't there anything I can do!?"
"You were so full of life."
"Now you don't even make a sound..."
"I want to hear your voice."
(This is like talking to a wall.)
"Rinoa...Call my name."
(......)

Squall carries Rinoa to Esthar
Squall (Let's go, Rinoa. Let's go meet Ellone.)
(Ellone will bring us together.)
(...Sorry everyone.)
(I can't go on like this.)
"It's a bit far, but we'll make it."
(...It's pretty far...)
(Didn't think it would be this far...)
(What am I doing...?)
(Go to Esthar...Find Ellone...Talk to Ellone...)
(But there's no guarantee that everything will be resolved if I talk to Ellone.)
(Even so, I'm...)
(I.........sure have changed.)
(I wonder what everyone's doing...?)
(They're probably laughing at me. Or maybe they're angry...?)
"What do you think?"
"To tell you the truth...I worry too much about what other people think of me."
"I hate that side of me..." "That's why I didn't want anyone to get to know me.
" "I wanted to hide that side of myself. I hate it."
"Squall is an unfriendly, introverted guy."
"It made it easy for me when people perceived me that way."
"That's a secret between you and me. Got that?"
"Rinoa..."

Memory Fragment: Rinoa scratches Irvine
Rinoa "Irvine, go back to the desert prison!"
Irvine "No, it's your father's order. I'm taking you back to Deling City."
"Ouch! Are you crazy!?"
Rinoa "We have to go back and help everybody!"
Irvine "They'll be fine."
"I'm sure they can get outta there when the time comes."
Rinoa "You don't know for sure."
"Squall might say 'but no one has ordered me to escape', and end up staying in there."
"We can't have that! We have to go help them!"
"I don't care if I have to force you back."
Irvine "Ow...Ow...OUCH!"
"Ok, ok...I'll go, I'll go!"

Memory Fragment: Rinoa is embarrased
Zell "Squall's ring? I dunno where he bought it."
Rinoa "I want the same one. It looks really cool, doesn't it?"
Zell "You mean the one with some monster carved into it?"
Rinoa "YEAH!"
Zell "Alright, how 'bout I make you one? I'm pretty good at that kinda stuff."
Rinoa "Really!? Sure, OK!!!"
Zell "Let's have Squall show us the real thing."
Rinoa "...We can't do that."
Zell "Why not?"
Rinoa "...It's embarrassing."
Zell "Say what?" "Oh..."
Rinoa "No! It's not what you think!"

Memory Fragment: Ultimecia in Rinoa
Squall (Where am I...?)
(You're...)
(Rinoa...)
(This isn't Rinoa!)
Ultimecia "Oh, my loyal knight, Seifer. The sorceress is alive...The sorceress demands."
Squall (Ultimecia!? The future sorceress is inside Rinoa!?...Transferred from Edea?)
(Where's Rinoa!!!?)
Ultimecia "Find the legendary Lunatic Pandora, said to be hidden beneath the ocean."
"Only then shall the sorceress provide you with dreams again."
Squall (Rinoa! Where are you? Answer me!)
Seifer "As you wish, Ultimecia."
Rinoa (...Squall...I'm scared.)
Squall (Rinoa!!!)

Eyes On Me
Rinoa "Hey!?"
Squall "Go sit over there. Put your seatbelt on."
Squall "Now go sit down."
Rinoa "Just a little longer."
Squall "Why are you holding on to me like this?"
Rinoa "You don't like this, Squall?"
Squall "Just not used to it."
Rinoa "How about when you were little?" "Didn't you feel safe and secure being held by your parents?"
Squall "I can't remember anything about my parents..."
"But...Ellone was there for me." "Ellone was there to hold my hand."
Rinoa "Made you feel safe and secure?"
Squall "Sure." "But she left. Just disappeared."
"I'm afraid..." "Afraid of having that feeling of comfort taken away."
Rinoa "You were afraid of losing us?" "Is that why you kept your distance?"
Squall "I was always alone..."
Rinoa "Squall..." "You missed out on all the good things in life." "You've missed out on so much."
Squall "...Maybe."
Rinoa "Definitely." "I like it like this."
"I liked having my mom hold me."
"My dad, too, back when we got along."
Squall "I'm not your mom."
Rinoa "No, of course not."
"But now...Squall, you're the one who gives me the most comfort."
"Comfort and happiness..."
"And annoyance and disappointment, too!"
Squall "...Whatever."
Rinoa "...Whatever."
Squall "You should get back to your seat now."
Rinoa "Just a little longer."
Squall (You'll be safer in your seat.)
Rinoa "We're gonna make it home, right?"
Squall "We can only hope."
Rinoa "When we get back...We won't be able to stay together, huh?"
Squall "...Maybe." "No one can predict the future, there are no guarantees."
"Those were your words, Rinoa."
Rinoa "That's not what I meant."
Squall "We'll figure out what to do once we get back."
Airstation "This is Airstation. Ragnarok, please respond."
Squall "This is the Ragnarok."
Airstation "We have some questions for you."
"We're collecting escape pods."
"We have a good idea of what happened."
"I hear no one from Lunar Base is on the Ragnarok."
"How many of you are there?"
Squall "Just two."
Airstation "......Your names?"
Squall "Squall. I'm a SeeD from Balamb Garden."
"...Rinoa."
Airstation "Rinoa? The sorceress!? She's on the ship!?"
Squall (So...It's true? Rinoa is a sorceress?)
Rinoa "I've...become a sorceress. I can't stay with you anymore, Squall."
Airstation "Respond, Ragnarok!"
Rinoa "I don't want the future. I want the present to stand still. I just want to stay here with you..."
Squall (Rinoa...)
Airstation "Respond, Ragnarok!"
Rinoa "Nobody would want to be around me anymore..."
Airstation "The sorceress will be seized upon arrival. Be sure to follow the crews instructions."
Rinoa "I'm...scared."
Airstation "Squall, do you copy? Is the sorceress listening, too?"
Rinoa "I'm scared, Squall."
Rinoa "I don't wanna go back."

Hyne's Descendant
Rinoa "...I should tell you this before I go."
"I was possessed out in space. There was a sorceress inside me."
"Ultimecia, a sorceress from the future. She's trying to achieve time compression."
"She's the only one who would be able to exist in such a world. She, and no other."
"As long as I'm free, she'll continue to use me to accomplish her goal."
"I...We can't let that happen, right...?...I should go now."
"......I'm ready." Man "All right."
"We'll be heading to the Sorceress Memorial."
Squall "Rinoa! Don't go!"
Rinoa "......Thanks, Squall. But I have to go..."
Squall (......Rinoa.)
Rinoa "......Oh...I still have your ring."
Squall "You keep it."
Rinoa "You sure?"
Squall "Yeah..."
(...This is what Rinoa decided. There's nothing I can do about it...right?)

Sorceress Memorial
Squall "Rinoa, hold on! I'll get you out in a sec!"
"What am I supposed to do!? Come on!"
Rinoa "Squall, don't! I'm a sorceress."
Squall "I don't care."
"Let's go."

Flower Field
Rinoa"What'll become of me?"
Squall"Don't worry about it."
"There've been many good sorceresses. Edea was one."
"You can be like her."
Rinoa"But Edea's still...
""I can't guarantee anything, either, if Ultimecia possesses me again..."
"You saw me. She controlled me in outer space and made me break Adel's seal."
"What might happen next time?"
"What will I end up doing?"
"Will I end up fighting everyone?...Scary thought, isn't it?"
Squall(Rinoa......)
(Even if you end up as the world's enemy,)
(I'll...)
(I'll be your knight.)
Rinoa"If I fall under Ultimecia's control again..."
"SeeD will come kill me, right?"
"And the leader of SeeD is you, Squall..."
"Squall's sword will pierce my heart......"
"I guess it's ok if it's you, Squall. Nobody else."
"Squall, if that ever happens..."
Squall"That's enough!"
"I'll never do anything like that. The sorceress I'm after is not you, Rinoa."
"My enemy is the sorceress from the future...Ultimecia."
Rinoa"Ultimecia lives in the future and possesses me."
"She uses my body as her extension into this world."
"How? How will you save me?"
Squall"I'll come up with something...There's gotta be a way."
Rinoa"......"
Squall"Don't worry. Trust me."
Rinoa"...I trust you."
"Well, until you find a way, maybe..."
"Maybe I should stay in Esthar, at the memorial? Wouldn't that be better?"
Squall"No...That'd be pointless."
"I'll just end up going after you again.""
Rinoa...Just stay close to me."
Rinoa"Oh..."
"Those words!
Squall"What?"
Rinoa"That's what started everything."
Squall"What are you talking about?"
Rinoa"You don't remember?"
Squall"Something I said?"
Rinoa"Oh, just forget it!"
Squall"No, it's because of the GF. That's why I forgot."
Rinoa"That's just an excuse."
Squall"Feeling better?"
Rinoa"Yeah."
"Can I tell you a story?"
"I had a dream. It was a scary dream."
"We make a promise. We promise to see shooting stars together."
"I get dressed up and put on your ring."
"But the thing is, I can't remember where I'm supposed to meet you."
"I start to panic. I really want to see you, Squall, but I don't know where to go."
"I start running through the mountains, the desert, the plains...Through Timber, Balamb and Galbadia..."
"When I realize I can't run any longer...I...I just want to see you so badly..."
"So I scream, Squall, where are you!?"
"Then I woke up. I was crying."
"I'm sorry. You don't have to say anything."
"I just felt like I had to tell you."
Squall"It was just a dream..."
"It doesn't mean anything."
"Don't worry about it."
Rinoa"...I guess you're right."
Squall"How about this..."
"I'll be here..."
Rinoa"...Why?"
Squall"The reason why you couldn't find me was because we haven't promised yet."
Rinoa"Promised...?"
Squall"I'll be waiting for you. If you come here, you'll find me. I promise."
Rinoa"I'll be here, too. It's a promise!"
"Thanks, Squall!"
"Next time, we'll meet for sure!"

one of my fave videos: final fantasy 8's opening scence

(one of my old favorites! before the internet age, i would usually watch this video through ps1, i would play the game and whenever i feel like i want to watch this fmv, i would start all over again. haha. cool aye? the background music's Liberi Fatali by Nobuo Uematsu) O=)

random fan made rinoa & squall music video:


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thanks to: wanderlust: squall leonhart shrine, eyes on me: rinoa heartily shrine and youtube

inked by alex at 11:50 AM

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

problems?

hey there! thanks for visiting my site. hope you enjoy. to get the best viewing experience here please:

1. go to VIEW menu
2. choose TEXT SIZE
3. and click SMALLEST

thanks again. and see yah! au revoir.

inked by alex at 6:47 PM

Monday, May 01, 2006

before romeo and juliet.




this is one of the romantic movie i have ever seen! its just like what it said, before romeo & juliet... there was tristan & isolde.
ha-ha! no kidding. its great! put it in your must to do list before summer ends. because thats what i did. hehe. honestly haven't seen it pa eh. kasi naman, we haven't visited cdo pa, haha. i was suppose to watch this movie when i get back to cebu before my summer classes. but unfortunately i didn't take any summer classes. kaya hindi rin ako nakapanood. now im hoping my mom would buy me a dvd for my collection and para mapanood ko na at last!

inked by alex at 1:52 AM