Monday, July 31, 2006
i SHOULD hate you.
accusations2x. who'll you believe? those people you dont know or the ONE you do know?* RANT ALERT!! (this is directed to ONE person. sorry i have to do it here) *
i told you DONT post it there, they will kill me. but what did you do? you let the whole world to see what i have done? my parents will kill me before ill wlak back there. DIBA SABI KO WAG!? and now you are accusing me of things na i didnt DO. what? that i am unfaithful? HELL to you. believe the people YOU want to me believe. i dont freakin care. you are strangling me to the very core. i hope you are happy. i should have known. i should not have THINGS to over come me. honestly i know im also a b**ch. and im SORRY. i cant help it if you're THERE and im HERE. but he was right i should've let go. dont worry i will. ill release from what iam doing to YOU now. i hope you'll be happy. and you know what? THOSE are MY FRIENDS you are accusing me of. cant i have a life here? am i NOT ALLOWED to have friends? bulls**t.
YOU KNOW WHAT? ITS OVER.
inked by alex at 6:57 PM
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
damsel in distress
Ah. Sad to say that of all the roles of those pretty little princesses we saw in the movies. Right now, I could say that I am that damsel in distress waiting for her prince to come. Yes, w-a-i-t-i-n-g. of course Im young and free. But you know, you cant help but fall for those sweet movies and those romantic books you set your eyes upon. Oh yeah, damn those media freaks. When I was little, I was fresh from those media harm that I am now inflated with. I was that little innocent girl who is neither looking for her prince nor waiting for the happy ending to come. I was that young and untroubled lass. The things that mattered to me before were my family, school, my toys, my clothes and my playmates. Relaxed as I was from the troubled world. I see movies with romantic scenes, I would just stare at them with disgust, feeling a bit sick and exclaiming yuck. Thats just so sickening. I used to think why would a boy and a girl kiss? Or send love quotes or letters? Why would they want to get married? They have their parents after all. Ahhh. Remembering my rants about romance or knight in shinning armors was really amusing. I never thought that I even thought about those before. But now, seeing the world in a different perspective, changes my own perspective on things. I grew up. Ive learned to appreciate the things that are around me. Whether a thing or a boy. Hehe. I became much more into those love quotes or love stories that I hear and read. It’s either dreamy or romantic to hear and youd suddenly feel kilig. Ah. The irony of past and present. Since I grew up on my childish ways I always thought Id be Aurora who met Prince Philippe in her dreams. But no! Im no Aurora. I am that damsel in distress waiting and waiting in vain. I envy those of my friends who are what they say complete with the knight but I dont think with a shinning armor. Hehe. At night I would always hug Beethoven tight and pray to God to give me a sign on who would it be. I would ask for an omen whether I have met him or not yet. I cant help but to be curios on whether Ill ever meet my prince or not. Exciting aye? I tried to look for him in the faces I see in school or before or after school. But friends have thought me that you don’t go looking for love. Let love find you. Oh really? But how and when would I realize that that love theyre talking about is already there? Ironic, I know. God must have enjoyed making this world, its too darn complicated! He loves seeing us struggle then fall and then stand up with heads up high. He created this love twisty and winding so that well encounter every other experience that we need before we end up in the finishing line. Or I guess He wanted us to taste all the bitterness and sweetness in life before we taste the final concoction. But sometimes we dont realize that youve met your final concoction. I guess we really need both our eyes wide open. Hehe. He never really made it easier for us, which just adds to the excitement! But of course as the cliché goes, theres always a rainbow after the rain. But hey I cant help it if Im only human. I have the curiosity that never really satisfies us. And Im still waiting for that sign you know, thus Im still that damsel in distress waiting for my prince. Tick—tock. But Aurora still waited for the dream where she met her prince. I guess everybody waits.inked by alex at 5:15 PM
Sunday, July 23, 2006
it hurts you know?
i cant believe guys can really be that dense. i mean take this for an example. this guy already knows that this GURL likes him (a lot). they're close friends. and would talk about things for a really long time. since the guy dated this girl (his current gf) he wont even budge to text or kahit mangamusta lang with the GURL friend. then one night he barged in texting he was so happy and all kasi he has the perfect gf in the world. i mean, why would he keep on barging, in the middle of an unexpected night and talk about he's all so loving gf and not ask if how was the GURL, hows her life there. i mean i know, SHE should hear him out because SHE'S his friend. but what if the GURL replies to his texts, are: "oh really great". without comma, period or any quotation mark. does that signals out that: "hey, i dont care about your gf!" does it? but no, he would realy ask "hey! dont sleep yet. ill call you because im so happy!". and then he calls and talks about all the wonderful things he and his gf did the past week. all she ever did was grunt and feel happy but deep down inside it really hurts. cant he get the signal that, "hey! stop talking about your perfect gf, come and ask me how am i!!". pero ofcourse, why would he ask about HER? he doesnt remember her anymore nga, he would only text if he's feeling a bit high, or for some forsaken miracle. ofcourse. SHE cant do anything about it na. because its his decision. i know. its obviously killing HER slowly. pero what did SHE do? did SHE tell him to stop calling/texting HER if it was about his gf? no, why? because SHE'S stands on what he said about her "SHE'S the bestest listener there is" and ofcourse SHE'S his friend.that's what love is all about isn't? its about seeing the one you love happy, even though every single happy experience he has, pierces your heart. its all the essence of love.. we love and love and dont care if were bleeding to death, because silently we love being hurt. =)
inked by alex at 5:43 PM
Friday, July 21, 2006
tripping over.
while i was half-walking, half-running to the internet cafe 2 meet my classmates. i was shocked when someone called out (more like shouted) the last name of my crush. and i tripped because i was caught off guard, but luckly i didnt fell on my face. so when i finally got my balance i looked around looking half-ashamed and half-furious. because there were people around nakakahiya! and i thought it was my friends playing a prank on me. but as i looked around my left.. i was shocked. as in shocked, shocked, shocked, shocked!.. because my so-called crush was there! he was there walking to me and then past me and joined his friends. i swear i looked like an idiot because my mouth was surely dangling open as i watched him approach! and he looked at me i dont know what was the look on his face, kasi he was parang nahihiya pero nka-half smile when he passed by me.oohhm, i almost died right then and there.. i cant believe it, i cant believe it.. basta in conclusion and cute nya pa rin!! woot-woot.. =)inked by alex at 11:39 AM
Thursday, July 20, 2006
fishing around.
im gonna buy, im gonna buy a fish! this was my plan a long time ago pa! coz its pretty lonely living up in a small room talking to your self for the whole school year right? haha. and my fish, ill name it after my crush.. woot-woot. he's such a baby-faced cutie! and because one of my friend saw him kanina for the first time and she said he looks like a fish (a cute fish i might add).. argh! how cute. hehe. he's just soooo adorable. really! his totally-undeniably-super-glorifingly handsome.. he has that baby like looks, and ahh... i melt everytime i see him. and i burn up alive whenever ill catch him looking at me. like all the blood in my body goes up to my checks. ill look like im sick and sweating but if you touch me you'll feel cold. argh. oh, basta his presence just caffienates my days!!! his aura just burns me alive. ohhh. im hoping to see him tomorrow!! (cross your fingers for me!)inked by alex at 6:22 PM
Saturday, July 15, 2006
are romantic movies sabotaging your love life?
After almost 15 years as a faithful fan of romantic comedies, I’ve come to a painful conclusion:The movies we watch to supplement our love lives are actually sabotaging them. They make us wonder why our ex hasn’t appeared in our yard playing “In Your Eyes” at midnight even though, if he did so, we’d file for a restraining order, not a marriage license. They lead us to believe that an older, more sophisticated man who criticizes the way we look/talk/ dress will fall madly in love with our made-over selves -- if it was good enough for Audrey Hepburn in My Fair Lady, it’s good enough for us.
A lot of lip service has been paid to the idea that violence in films causes men to be violent in real life. Why isn’t anyone calling for warning labels for movies that cause otherwise reasonable women to act like emotional psychopaths? Hollywood’s take on love leaves us dissatisfied with the relationships we have, and hungry for the sort of romance that simply never occurs in nature.
I’d like to tell you that this realization has caused me to throw out all my old videotapes. Into the trash with you, Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks. You’ve set me up for failure, Rock Hudson. It’s documentaries and presidential biopics from here on in. But a girl’s gotta dream.
Still, it’s helpful to at least try to separate fact from fiction. In that spirit, I’ve identified some of the most common romantic-movie traps. If you feel yourself slipping back into fantasyland, get thee to a Blockbuster and rent Annie Hall -- the only romantic movie I can think of that’s both satisfying and honest.
The Sleepless in Seattle Trap
Like Bill Pullman in the movie, your current boyfriend or fiancé may have committed some unforgivable crimes, such as having lots of allergies but no nickname. Then you hear a voice on the radio, or see a face across a crowded room. Suddenly, you know this stranger is the love of your life. OK, you already have a partner who’s perfectly stable and lovely, but I’m afraid you will have to end that relationship. After all, in the 30 seconds you’ve spent with the new man, you’ve learned everything there is to know about him. And. It. Is. Good. You use Google, gossip, mutual acquaintances, and expensive private investigators to track him down and ask him out to dinner.
See also: Before Sunrise, Before Sunset, A Walk in the Clouds.
The Real Ending: Over dinner, you realize he has bad breath, a wife, and absolutely nothing whatsoever in common with you.
The As Good As It Gets Trap
You’ve found a guy who has that certain something -- as well as a bad attitude, a fear of commitment, or just a nonspecific nasty streak. Other than that, though, what a catch. Minor personality flaws won’t stand in the way of your fate. You decide that your love can change him, because that’s what true love does.
See also: Jerry Maguire, Reality Bites.
The Real Ending: You go to great lengths to show him that you’re worth loving before ultimately deciding that he’s never going to change -- and that he’s the last thing you’d want to complete you, anyway.
The An Affair to Remember Trap
You meet the perfect man and make elaborate, romantic plans for the future right away. He takes your number (no need for you to take his) and promises to call the next day. When the phone doesn’t ring, you don’t worry -- he’s your soul mate after all, there’s just been some misunderstanding. Two days later, you start to grow concerned that something has happened to him. Is he under a bus somewhere? Has he been taken hostage? You go from concerned to all-out panicked. Despite the gentle protestations of your friends that perhaps he’s just not that into you, you remain convinced that he was hit by a cab and rendered a cripple, and is too proud to leave his apartment.
See also: The Notebook.
The Real Ending: Three months later you see him dancing in a club with some chick in a tube top.
The When Harry Met Sally Trap
You’ve never been attracted to your male best friend, but recently things in the romance department have been less than enthralling. So you start to wonder -- maybe, just maybe, The One has been staring you in the face all along. Who cares if he still lives in his mom’s basement? This is destiny, damn it.
The Real Ending: Prepare for an awkward, tequila-induced make-out session that definitely requires an “I don’t know what I was thinking” email the next day.
The Titanic Trap
You just made partner and need to focus on work, but you can’t get this new guy off your mind. His name is Bo, he never went to college, and he works at the burrito place where you sometimes grab lunch between clients. Your friends ask what exactly you hope to gain from this relationship, but luckily you’re not a snob like them, and you know that a person’s job isn’t what defines him.
See also: Sabrina, Pretty Woman, Sweet Home Alabama.
The Real Ending: At a company dinner, your boss asks Bo what he does and he replies, “I work the grill, but I’m hoping to be put on the register soon.” Face it: If Leo had made it to dry land, that relationship would never have survived.
The Stepmom Trap
None of your romantic fantasies ended with Prince Charming leaving you for his secretary. Nor did they include falling for an otherwise great man with two sizable and unavoidable flaws (i.e., his children). Don’t panic. Contrary to what you might think, this divorce stuff is a piece of cake. Your step kids hate you? All it’s going to take to turn that around are some good old fashioned sex tips from you (to make the brats more popular, duh) and the untimely death of their mother. Your ex couldn’t seem to tie his own shoelaces when you were together? Rest assured that once you’ve signed the divorce papers, he will clean up his act and become the kind of guy you meant to marry.
See also: The Philadelphia Story, High Society, The Parent Trap, Mrs. Doubtfire.
The Real Ending: You continue to hate the bastard for years to come, despite the fact that your shrink says rage won’t help you heal. And whatever side of the joint custody battle you might fall on -- be it mom or stepmom -- the kids aren’t going to make the situation any easier. If you’re a stepmom, get ready for the cry of “You can’t tell me what to do! You’re not my mother!” to take up permanent residence in your psyche. If you’re the real mom, the line will be “When we’re at Dad’s house, Bambi never makes us do our homework/eat our vegetables/stop playing with knives.”
The Pretty in Pink Trap
Your next-door neighbor just happens to be a Calvin Klein underwear model. Lucky you. You’ve brought him countless jars of jam that need loosening, and even gotten locked out of your place in your cutest dress. Yet he hasn’t asked you out. In the words of Journey, “Don’t stop believin’.”
See also: Notting Hill, Love Actually.
The Real Ending: There’s a fine line between healthy optimism and insanity. There’s also a reason the quarterback in high school always dated the head cheerleader -- their kind is biologically predetermined to go forth and make other popular kids for everyone else to envy. It might be smarter to set your sights on the guy in 2B with the sweet smile and the receding hairline.
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p.s. i got this article from yahoo, while i was checking up my e-mail. and besides its not the complete article, ive cutted some part of it at the first part.. hehe. i just want you to read lang. =)
inked by alex at 3:02 PM
Thursday, July 13, 2006
pampalipas oras.
I got it from vicky from keii.three names you go by:
1. alex.
2. kamille.
3. kamz.
three screen names you have had:
1. beachbeaux.
2. RinoaAngeL.
3. goddess.
three physical things you like about yourself:
1. eyes.
2. hair.
3. feet. - my perfect feet! haha.
three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. lips.
2. errrrr!. (uhuh!)
3. legs.
three parts of your heritage:
1. filino.
2. chinese.
3. isang red blood cell na español.
three things that scare you:
1. WOOOOOORMS.
2. my dad kapag nagalit.
3. ghosts
three of your everyday essentials:
1. kuwarta.
2. pagkain.
3. suklay.
three of your favorite musical artists as of now:
1. the calling.
2. alanis morissette.
3. amel larrieux.
three of your favorite songs:
1. if only - the calling.
2. 1000 words - jade.
3. iris - goo goo dolls.
+ (may pang-apat para masaya)
4. make me whole - amel larrieux.
three things you want in a relationship:
1. HONESTY.
2. love (syempre).
3. loyalty.
three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. eyes. - i loooove those droppy eyes pwede rin chinito..
2. hair. - i loooove wavy/curly hair. its so cute!!
3. the way he talks. - basta marunong magsalita..
three of your favorite hobbies:
1. reading.
2. surfing the net.
3. blogging.
three things you want to do really badly now:
1. go to church, (honestly).
2. eat.!
3. fix my pc. =(
three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. be FORMULA ONE DRIVER!.
2. or a neurologist.
3. a medical technologist.
three places you want to go on vacation:
1. monaco.
2. zurich.
3. palawan.
three kid's names you like:
1. io bellatrix marie.
2. gabrielle arabella beaux.
3. antoine alexandre.
three things you want to do before you die:
1. watch a formula one race.
2. visit monaco and zurich.
3. get married & be rich!.
three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. i love formula one racing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
2. i love any online or offline games!.
3. i watch an awful lot of sports.
three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. i love cutie boyis! haha.
2. i make pa-kikay.
3. i love fashion..
three celebrity crushes:
1. KIMI RAIKKONEN.
2. hayden christensen.
3. david beckham!
inked by alex at 9:32 AM
Monday, July 10, 2006
the dream.
the night i saw you,i dreamnt to be yours
and you to be mine.
a glimpse of you
stopped my world
in its tracks.
i thought fate was by my side
coz i saw you,
beneath your helm,
across the distance
and amongst the crowd.
but fate seems to be cruel
coz our paths cannot cross.
we are in 2 different races,
living in 2 different worlds.
i saw where fate has put us
in this threshold of uncertainty.
but still i did not stop dreaming.
for not a day i did not
think of you.
coz everywhere,
i see you in my eyes,
i hear you in my ears,
i feel you in my skin.
you are like a morphine,
that i can't seem
to take enough.
you are in my very veins.
you keep me dreaming.
you keep me from giving up
in this world of reality.
but still you do not know me,
or i guess never will.
you have your own world.
own life. own dreams.
i will never be a part of you,
but you are already a part of me.
i will not stand out in your crowd,
but you already stand out in mine.
i will not stop dreaming.
coz you are the very reason
i ever dream.
someday i will face the incomprehensible truth.
that no matter how hard i dream.
we can just never be.
** i wrote this one during the summer break. the night i wrote it i was listening to the final fantasy piano collection and was thinking about KIMI RAIKKONEN. i know! lame! haha. but after revising it, i guess it applies to all my crushes... =(
inked by alex at 3:21 PM
Monday, July 03, 2006
the tears.
but since i sat down here in front of the pc. and looked at the weekend's glorified-mortified plays, from ENGLAND's match versus portugal, with F1's race at Indianapolis and the (so forgotten by me) Wimbeldon.i was all teary when i read this article from ENGLAND'S FIFA WORLD CUP WEBSITE.
David Beckham has announced that he is standing down as England captain in the wake of the defeat in the FIFA World Cup™ quarter-final against Portugal in Gelsenkirchen.
Beckham made the announcement in an emotional statement during a press conference on Sunday morning. He said that after almost six years in the job he believes the "time is right to pass on the armband" as England enter a new era under Steve McClaren, the successor to Sven-Goran Eriksson whose last game in charge coincided with England’s departure from the tournament.
Go to the England team page
Reading from a statement he said he had written on Saturday night, Beckham, 31, said: “I have lived the dream and have been extremely privileged to have worn the armband and been captain of England and for that I’ll always be grateful.”
The Real Madrid player, who was forced off with a knee injury during Saturday's game, stressed that he intended continuing as a player for his country. The decision to relinquish the captaincy, he said, had been made “some time ago” but he had hoped to announce it on the back of success in Germany.
“This is the most difficult decision of my career to date,” added Beckham, who was captain for 58 of his 95 appearances for England. “I have discussed it with my family and those close to me and the time is right.
“Our performances in this World Cup have not been enough to progress further and all the players regret that and are hurt by that more than people realise. I wish to thank all the players for their support during my time as captain, Peter Taylor, Sven and all the coaches.
“I’d also like to thank the press and of course the England supporters who have been great to me and my team-mates and for me it’s been an absolute honour.”
Beckham’s first game as captain came on 15 November 2000 in a friendly game with Italy while Taylor was in temporary charge, prior to the appointment of Eriksson.
Under him England reached the quarter-finals of both the 2002 World Cup - losing to Brazil - and UEFA EURO 2004, where they lost, as on Saturday, to Portugal on penalties.
i am of course a big fan of beckham (not because he's just good looking), because he is also good. and its just so sad knowing that in the next World Cup, he will not be the England's Captain anymore. i guess he was very downhearted (so as i am) with the outcome of the match and thought that he's not all that "rightful" to be england's captain anymore. basta, i am so sad. i cant believe what am i reading a while ago. basta i was really shock that he's stepping down na. and its really sad. as in really sad. plus the elimination of ENGLAND from the WORLD CUP, is also quite a blow. UNBELIEVABLE. hay. enough.
"another" thing that upsetted me is the WIMBLEDON. 2 things, first Andre Agassi's defeat on his ever last match by Rafael Nadal (nakakainis xa!) who also defeated Roger Federer (which was also a hell in French Open). basta it was super nakakainis! i cant believe it. read here. and second Andy Roddick's defeat by Scottish Andy Murray. plus Venus teary OUT at losing to Jelena Dokic to defend her crown. Argh! Nakaka-inis!!.
andre's last kiss to the crowd with tears...
Finally, Kimi's Accident in Indianapolis. argh! i cant believe it. pati si Kimi? i thought it was all good for him finishing 2nd to 4th. but having an accident? too much. its such a bummer. although i can say na his performance in Indianapolis was all that in the pinnacle in his 2006 season. kaya it is an ALL CAST DISAPPOINTING WEEKEND FOR ME. =(
